i think i'm slipping into depression.
but then if i'm in depression
the whole world has to be depression first.
isn't it true.

i had this weird feeling i could slaughter somebody and everybody.
dammit.

we seriously need sectionals.
soon.
or we all will die.
i will die too.
saddedly losing all my stamina
that i managed to build up before.
and now im losing it ALL
sighz.

and to you. yes you
if you want people to respect you,
then please show some respect to others.
like. i would expect you to set an example
okay.
it might not be deliberate.
but you could at least THINK before you said it.
not that im sensitive or anything.
but ya.
what if you had met someone more sensitive.
i mean like. what's the person going to think man.

oh yes.
i feel so smart.
i read the scales part.
and i got freaked
really freaked

ha
i rock man

argh.
i suck
i dont feel like i can bring the section to greater heights
i dont even think i can LEAD the section
like seriously.
now that clara's gone.
i feel like.
there's nobody to share our solo liaoz..
kk..
that wasn't the point.
now that she's really really not around..
im feeling lost..
like whole section's unbalanced?
is it really what i think it is..or is it just me?

we need to talk to them
i mean they are nice people
i just have this feeling that they dont take us seriously
or dont take band seriously
or dont SYF seriously

i mean they didnt start off with us.
i mean i can understand that they dont feel what we feel..
but im trying to make them know..
or even understand how this is important to us.

im lost